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( My random thoughts are surprisingly sexual in nature )

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Gakked from eurydice72


Everyone has things they blog about. Everyone has things they don't blog about. Challenge me out of my comfort zone by telling me something I don't blog about, but you'd like to hear about, and I'll write a post about it. Ask for anything: latest movie watched, last book read, political leanings, thoughts on yaoi, graphic techniques, etc.

Strange homosexuality is *always* relevent to my life.

The subject line is a sentence I uttered today in class, while we were talking about Dracula. The gayness is that book is so overwhelming, I can't ignore it anymore. I will be writing about it for my seminar paper. Actually, all the scholars I found state that Stoker was either completely gay and closeted or staunchly heterosexual and hated all gay people. Which is strange, because he was very close to Walt Whitman. I find it very, very bizarre that in Dracula scholarship, it's apparently perfectly acceptable to make claims about the author based on the text. Why? It's because of New Historicism, but why did the New Historicists get so completely into that novel? Anyway, my point is, the seminar paper will be about how Stoker was clearly bisexual, and dealing with the desire to penetrate as well as be penetrated. Hey, why not? I have just as much evidence as everybody else in the field.

I've also decided what I'm going to write for my seminar paper for my Film Theory class. Cary Grant: Great Actor or GREATEST Actor? Just kidding. That's not the title. But the seminar paper will be about Cary Grant, and the sort of pleasure the audience receives from watching Cary Grant be Cary Grant, and how that dynamic is played with throughout his movies. I get to watch a bunch of Cary Grant movies for research. That makes me so happy.

I'm leaving for California in a few days. That also makes me so happy. I've got some stuff to do before I leave, but I'll take care of all that tomorrow.

Jeff Tweedy wrote about his experiences with migraines, depression, panic attacks, and drug abuse for the New York Times. It's really sad and amazing and I love Tweedy more. I also wanted to cry for him.

There are a lot of different ways migraines have affected my music, and vice versa: being a musician has allowed me — for lack of a better phrase — to rise above the pain from time to time. I’ve never missed a show because of a migraine. But I’ve played some really horrible shows and cut them short because there was very little I could do to keep going. I’ve played shows where I had bucket on the side of the stage where I threw up in between songs regularly. There’ve been a lot of horrible experiences trying to, well, you know, have the show go on.

You should read it.

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From eurydice72: How about your future? I know you're stressed, but in two months, that stress is gone. Think about what happens the day after. What are you going to do? Where do you want to be? Is there a place for me in your writing future?

It's less than two months, actually. Six weeks.

Hmmm. The day after. I think I might drink. Drinking is fun. And I feel like I've earned a beer or two! It's been taking a long time to answer this question, because I just don't know what the answer is. I think I'll just be starting a whole new round of stress. I don't have a job lined up. I still have no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life. I was talking to a friend of mine today, and we both agree that it's so weird to think we're not students anymore. How are we supposed to market ourselves? "Well, I'm really good at writing papers, and I do well with deadlines." I'm not sure I'm prepared for this transition.

As for the future of my writing, I have a lot of things I'd love to do. I need to finish Gone. I need to finish (start) my novel about the Zombie Apocalypse. I want to write a book about Angel and Don Quixote. I have about six other bunnies that I desperately want to write. Plus, I want to make some money at this, so I've got to start getting more short stories/novellas/books to AQP. But none of my plans are actually placed at a higher priority than all of the Jamie Craig projects and bunnies. We've got dozens and dozens, and we could have more with a tiny bit of effort. I really believe that my future as a writer is completely bound and tied up with eurydice72. Which is a tiny bit scary, because my ability to keep friends is not that great. Everybody I've ever known who isn't slacker_97 usually gets pretty fed up with me eventually. And maybe he hasn't yet because I give him blowjobs. I don't know.

I guess ultimately I just want to be an author, and I hope it works out.